it's time! #music #wishlist

Okay, it's time to write here. Today I am not going to talk about movies, directors, literature, photography..
I am going to talk about music, musical instruments in particular.
Whole year I was craving for a harmonica, but 4 days ago (or 5 may be?) I've heard like my classmate mentioned she has it. I got her number to make sure she will bring it next day. It is pointless to decribe the following events but OMG HARMONICA IS UHHHHMAZING!!!!!
First of all, this video gave the birth to my passion:

Isn't it cool? harmonica, beatbox, music? It includes everything i like (not everything, but yeah.. u got it! ;) )
Actually, on facebook there are a lot of videos how to play harmonica - so you dont even need a teacher. There are different harmonicas, not by just appearance or by quantity of sounds, but they all have different keys. Some are lower or higher pitched as well.
Why do I like it so bad? Well, it is very easy to play by ear, you don't have to learn any notes, you just play.. You can take it with you everywhere - it is so small (however, there also can be huge harmonicas! lol)

After talking to my classmates, I realized that now I am craving for more musical instruments. Now there is a little chart:

• Most likely I will have it soon: Melodica. Very easy for those, who can play the piano. You just blow and press the keys. Easy breezy. Igor Krutoy has it too ;) So be cool as he is :) By the way, I had a small one when I was little! Oh those good ole times! :) 

• Other intrument - Flute. I played something like that when I was in elementary school. However, it sounded ridiculously annoying - I wish i had a nice with a soft sound flute. Also, pan flute can be gifted to me instead of simple flute. It is awesome too. 

• The first gran-pri goes to Soprano Sax! It is usually straight and looks like clarinet but this one does not! :) It's just a small and higher pitched sax. First time I've heard about it was when I went to the first band class in my American High School. Mr. Day asked me what do I want to play and I answered without a doubt - saxophone! He brought one, but it was too big for me!:( Then, he asked me if I have money and you have to agree that it's is a kinda weird question but i still answered it positively. And he responded like: " Well then, you can buy a soprano saxophone, it costs around $400 and I will be happy to teach you to play it!". I explained him that $400 is kinda a lot for my family and I can not spend this money on the instrument I can't play yet. What if I won't be able to? So I denied his offer :( How do you think, may be i should've had taken this chance? Please tell me, I am wondering to know your opinion! Then he was persuading me to play trumpet but I dont really like it and it's too easy, you won't wonder anyone by playing that( and im not a pioneer) . So that's how my band class was over, I changed it to Psych class ( and I enjoyed it a lot!!). 

• And the second gran pri goes to DRUM SET(KIT)!!

This 'small' thing has been a dream of my life for years!!! I SO want it!!!It's the most wonderful thing ever! Unfortunately, I never tried to play the real one :( But I know someday I will. Also, the bad thing is that it's too big - even for our not so small, but still, apartment. 

I played  the drum kit a lot  on apps on ipod, until my dear ipod was stolen. Also, it felt amazing to play it on Guitar Hero - i still have this warm feeling while remembering myself pretending to be a rock star drummer while playing guitar hero with Rekia and Shawn in Tennessee on the spring break. Such a good memories. It was so fun! And Shawn was very hot too! lol

So this is a short wishlist of instruments I want to have. Of course, it's not all, there are some other ones too. So keep checking my blog  for many more posts to come about music, cinematography, photography and just everything else! :) 

i am alive!

hey guys! i am so so so sorry i haven't written here for such a long time. I was a little  bit busy again. Actually, I didn't stop writing abot movies, so no worries! I was doing it on paper. Well, i have some news for you and hopefully an useful info, too. So tomorrow I will post here! Promise! :) 

о тесту Цветовой тест Люшера на сайте Психологические тесты у меня следующие результаты:

Заключение Люшера

Желаемые цели и поведение, продиктованное этими целями

Первая выборка
Слишком сильно развитое воображение, отдается фантазиям и мечтам. Жаждет интересных и волнующих событий, хочет, чтобы другие восхищались его обаянием.

Вторая выборка
Жаждет тонкого и сочувственного понимания и хочет оградить себя от споров, конфликтов или каких-либо обессиливающих стрессов.

Существующее положение вещей и уместное при этом поведение

Первая выборка
Относительно пассивен и находится в статичном состоянии, хотя тот или иной конфликт и мешает душевному покою. Hеспособен добиться отношений, которые могли бы удовлетворить его с точки зрения взаимной привязанности и взаимопонимания (предшествующая группа цветов характеризует попытку компенсации этого или другого конфликтов).

Вторая выборка
Аккуратен, методичен, самостоятелен. Hуждается в уважении, признании и понимании со стороны близких ему людей.

Сдерживаемые свойства и неуместное при этом поведение

Первая выборка
Обстоятельства вынуждают его идти на компромиссы и временно отказаться от некоторых удовольствий. Способен получать физическое удовлетворение от сексуальной активности.

Вторая выборка
Чувствует, что попал в бедственное или неудобное положение и ищет какого-либо пути к облегчению. Способен получать удовлетворение от сексуальной активности.

Отрицаемые, подавляемые или же несущие тревогу свойства

Первая выборка

Физиологическая интерпретация
Страдания и возбуждения, вызванные попыткой избежать каких бы то ни было воздействий или волнений. Окружение свое считает враждебным и испытывает сильное давление. Раздражителен и подвержен вспышкам гнева, возможны сексуальные неврозы или жалобы на сердце.

Психологическая интерпретация
Страдает из-за очевидной враждебности окружения. Испытывает чувство принуждения и невыносимое давление. Hегодует и возмущается тем, что он воспринимает как предъявляемые к нему неразумные требования, однако чувствует себя бессильным как-либо повлиять на ситуацию и неспособным защитить себя самого.

Коротко
Беспомощное бунтарство (первая группа цветов нужна как компенсация).

Вторая выборка

Физиологическая интерпретация
Стресс, вызванный разочарованием и настороженной самозащитой от дальнейших неудач (особенно в 7/8 поз., меньше, но также в 6/7).

Психологическая интерпретация
Hесбывшиеся надежды привели к неуверенности и настороженности. Требует свободы действия и отвергает какой бы то ни было контроль, кроме самоконтроля. Hе желает обходиться без чего-либо или в чем-либо себе отказывать и требует гарантии безопасности как панацеи от дальнейших неудач или потери положения и престижа. Сомневается в том, что в будущем положение будет хоть сколько-нибудь лучше и эта отрицательная установка приводит к тому, что он повышает свои притязания и отказывается от разумных компромиссов.

Коротко
Фиксированное беспокойство и напряжение ожидания (первая группа цветов характеризует компенсацию).

Актуальная проблема или поведение, вызванное стрессом

Первая выборка
Возбужденность, непредсказуемость поведения и раздражительность в сочетании с истощением жизненной энергии и нетерпимость каких-либо дальнейших требований к нему - все это вместе поставило бы в положение, в котором он чувствует, что сложившиеся обстоятельства таят для него какую-то угрозу. Ощущая свое бессилие что-либо с этим поделать собственными силами, он отчаянно надеятся, что какое нибудь решение укажет ему путь к спасению.

Вторая выборка
Разочарование и боязнь, что определять какие-либо новые цели не имеет смысла, вызвали тревогу и он страдает от недостатка каких-либо близких и сочувственных отношений. Он пытается спастись от этого бегством в искусственный мир, в котором эти разочарования отсутствуют и вещи более приближаются к тому, какими он хотел бы их видеть.

1st rule - you don't talk about fight club.

yes, it's me.
today is a memorable day  - i am finally writing a new post. I was again, busy, coz i have a fall break! I know it doesn't make anysense, but u know, u gotta do so much stuff. But the main thing i was doing is reading Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov. I haven't finished it yet, so i will write later about it.
So let's talk about movies. These days I've watched just 3 of them - No strings attached, Fight Club and Another Earth. I think those who watched these movies will know which one is the best one  - yes, it's Fight Club!
Well, of course 1st thing to mention is that there is Brad Pitt and blond Jared Leto - 2 actors I absolutely love and they are  usually filmed in good movies: Mr. Nobody, Requiem for a Dream, 27 chapter, and I'm not even talking about Brad Pitt - this is an endless list of movies. Also, the main female role was assigned to Helena Bonham Carter, who hasn't been favored by Tim Burton yet.
Fight Club is a movie that you can divide into quotes, but it's not boring at all. Have you ever talked to a person who was telling nothing but quotes? I have and it was terrible. But in Fight Club it's awesome. I searched some quotes from this movie in google ( coz my memory sucks!!)  so here you can see them:


Tyler Durden: Fuck off with your sofa units and strine green stripe patterns, I say never be complete, I say stop being perfect, I say let... lets evolve, let the chips fall where they may. 


Tyler Durden: Only after disaster can we be resurrected. 


Narrator: This is crazy... 
Tyler Durden: People do it everyday, they talk to themselves... they see themselves as they'd like to be, they don't have the courage you have, to just run with it. 


Richard Chesler: Is that your blood? 
Narrator: Some of it, yeah. 


Tyler Durden: You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world. 


Tyler Durden: Listen up, maggots. You are not special. You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake. You're the same decaying organic matter as everything else. 


Tyler Durden: Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need

 You want more? And even with the sound?

This movie was based on Chuck Palannik (did I spell it right?) book. Unfortunately, I have never read none of his books. Now I will for sure. The movie was directed by David Fincher, the same dude who directed The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (good movie with Brad Pitt, but a bit too long) 

So, Bred Pitt a.k.a Tyler Durden is a awesomely cool guy, which has it all: money, wit, strength, cuteness (lol). He represents what some people what to be like. Literally.
The movies starts up with a guy, who nobody ever listened to, who was alone, whose 'happiness' was in decorating his condo. But he could not sleep. Then he started to attend support clubs and by crying there he felt better. Once, his condo was burnt and he had nowhere to go so he called Tyler, a man who he got to know in the plane. They drank a bit too much and.. well, that's actually the story how Fight Club starts - some  new kind of support club, but a very different one. But i can't tell you :
"First rule of fight club - you never talk about fight club.
 Second rule of fight club - you never talk about fight club"
Anyways, the thing goes much further than just a simple fight club (if you can call it simple, huh!)
This movie shows you different things : how you should do what you like and never give up, you should be able to stand up for yourself, you should let it go, overcome your fears and your 'i can not's...etc. But this all shown as a little scenes,  which build the whole movie up as a puzzle. Everybody gets the generalized idea of the movie different, but I guarantee you - it is something that can actually change the way you see the world. Even the criminal attacks are not bad there and you know it. So it is something REALLY worth to watch and if you like unexpected ending (oh poor me, I wanna tell you everything!) and some of good humor-  it is definately for you.

There are some pictures of this movie I found:

Isn't he cute in this robe? So cute and so shameless. 

"Your soap is the best!!"

"Hit me as hard as you can!"

" -I am going to tell everyone about you! -Oh really? I will, too" 


Ok, i think this is too much info for just one post, so tomorrow there will be (i will try, promise) a post about other movies! 

woo!

things got really busy today!
well, im not gonna lie, ok.
i wasn't in the writing mood, that's the thing. the strong anxious feeling has covered my soul. no kidding. anyhow, i still got two spent my time nicely ( just couple of times lol forever alone thats what im called)
i cant miss writing about movies!
these days i've watched just 2 of them: 'the  jacket' and 'being john malkovich'.
they are good, but i really liked the second one.
both of these movies kinda remind me each other. they have some kind of a... i don't even know how to call it. may be like the moving of the conciousness? in the first one, the main character goes to future because of the medicines. in 'being john malkovich'... people can go to his head and some can control him!
the ideas of both movies are really good, especially 'being a...' - i guarantee you, it's something you have never seen before! :) there is a fine line between people and muppets. really interesting.. it might make you wonder, too - what if somebody can get an access to my head? what will happen? will i be strong enough to take the control and control myself or i will just be trapped in my conciousness, not being able to do anything, just observing when somebody controls my life?
also i have to mention that Cameron Diaz is starring there!! She looks almost unrecognizable. Her character is really interesting, too. Woman, who never knew she really was. She tried to be a man - and she liked it.
my favorite moment is when .... well, in case u r going to watch it, i'll just give u a hint :
Malkovich....Malkovich malkovich, malkovich. MALKOVICH!!!
it is hilarious.

Yeah, this movie is good. A lot of times it reminded me a total absurd though. But it is interesting and something unusual - so watch it! :) Also, I would really recommend it to those who like psychology.

Rio :)

Yesterday I finally watched 'Rio'!!! It literally made me cry, especially at the moment when he FLEW!!!OMG. sorry i told you but it was obvious that eventually he would learn how to fly. but really.. it felt SO great! and like - FINALLY!!HE FLIES! OH MY GOSH!
*and my eyes started watering*
then i realized i was crying...Actually, I dont cry a lot while i watch a movie. I really cried only when i watched Titanic (banal yeah), Bridge to Terabithia and  Dancing in the Dark. The last 2 - I was crying like a baby!! I just felt it so much, I was impressed. But I'll talk about these movies later. Just one more little thing : i love only those movies, which impress me. I hate it when I've just watched a movie in the cinema and then I walked out and  I DON'T REMEMBER IT! AT ALL! you can bravely call movies like that "shit". sorry..

Rio... As i expected it's not a bird's name. It's a city duh. You can really feel Brazilian atmosphere in the movie - viva la fiesta, carnaval and love :) Honestly, I really want to go there now. Seems like fun... Everything in the movie is awesome - idea, graphics, humor and music! I really recommend you to watch it if you feel tired or upset - it will fix your mood 100%.
This movie gives hope, inspiration and I guess considering this movie I should mention one of the most popular phrases : Impossible is nothing! :)
At first, Rio loves to be in his cage and just be a pet how Jules sasrcastically calls him :) He doesn't even want to fly that much. He's fine with all the things... But suddenly he falls in love and then... he changes :) I don't want to tell more... You can look it up on Internet but i would just find free time and watch it! :)

SORRY

Ok, so lately i've been so busy!
I started to go to courses to get my driving liscence... it's interesting :) I am really excited about getting it! also on the weekend i finally went shopping. honestly, russian shopping has disappointed me. a lot of ordinary things... well, yeah, i really liked some stuff but it won't fit me! anyways i liked some pull n bear stuff, topshop and befree(what is unusual for me, coz i dont like it so much). there is also some other stores i liked, but i dont remember them. but it s nothing special and it's not like i'd recommend it to you..
anyways, with all this stuff going on i found time to watch a movie! It's Superbad. well, a lot of people might think that it's just another dumb American comedy... but it's not :) ok, it kinda is but it's carrying a meaning within it...It talks a lot about all stuff like cops can have fun, u don't have to be drunk to get with somebody, coz for some people looks dont matter and the most important thing is about FRIENDSHIP. i really like that moment when one guy carries his bestfriend who had a blackout and that guy hurt feelings of the guy who was carrying him.. and then they just get that they are best friends ever no matter what etc.
It's just nowadays there is not a lot of stuff about friendship and it's sad.

As for me, love doesn't have to include friendship, but friendship includes love.

Songs that make you feel better! pt 1

Hey guys!
Well, I've been feeling a lil upset lately and I know lots of my friends are stressing out about exams and stuff. What I do is that I just turn the music on! However, not every kind of music will help you - i dont think listening to Evanescence (im not saying it s a bad music!!) will bring positiveness (is there a word like that? lol) in you life!
So here is MY list make-Alina-feel-better:

War - Why can't we be friends (it was played in my favorite movie 'Bridge to Terabitihia')

Sara B. -  fairytale (very true lyrics! dont miss them! :)  )

Five - Keep on Moving

Bruno Mars - Lazy Song (reeeeally hilarious music video!!! love it haha) 

And the last song will be a Russian one ;) I really looove this song for a long time already and..it's just awesome and it aaaalsways brings me in a good mood! :)

Павел Воля(Pavel Volya)- Радужная песня

I hope these songs will make you feel better!! :) And remember, there is more to come! I'll be posting more songs once in a while :)

thinking of future

According to my successes in translating the text from english into russian, the world wouldn't want me to be a translator! I'm glad tho :) I never wanted to be anyone like that, except one type: to go around with a famous person(like Ashton Kutcher!!) and translate everything for him - then - OKAY (imagine the pic of okay guy) - i will be a translator, but anything else - um, no.
Also, today i even woke up, got ready for the school and actually walked there when i was told to turn around to go back home coz our school didnt have electricity. W.T.F. Seriously? I did all this hard work for THAT? I would study with no lights on then -___- Yeah, I know I sound like a nerd. Sorry.
So, i came home and GOT SICK so i couldn't go to sleepover @ Ksyusha's. D: wonderful day huh? but i watched a great movie - 7 pounds with Will Smith. I really liked it... I'm not gonna tell you what it is about (in case if u gonna watch it, who knows..), but I'll just tell u what i think of it.
First, in the beginning we dont even get why Ben is so nice. He helps everyone.. Why??We can only see that he's like.. has a challenge with something! What is this challenge about - we find it out only in the middle of the movie. However, yeah, movie tries to keep the ending in a secret  - it's kinda clear how everything is gonna end up.
Summin  up, we can see in this movie a desire to live, regrets about time which was lost and fear of death. It makes YOU think about it, so i'm not gonna tell anything else- i just strongly recommend you to watch it urself! :)

I can add just one suitable example: it's from Steve Jobs' speech to Standford graduates, when he tells them just 3 stories... one of them is about death. He says that he always thought about it.. He heard - live ur day like its the last day of ur life, and he did. He tried not to be emarassed of the last day he spent in his life... For example, me... what did i do today? i'd be soooo upset if i died.. :( I didnt do anything today to be proud of. Of course, i should find good  things in my life, but when you're sick like i am now, what can u really do??
Another smart thing he said is that the death is a great engine for life. Think about it urself, its pretty clear.

Suppose

OK
let's suppose there is a guy
and lets think he's really nice
uh-huh uh-huh
so lets just hope he finally will take a step.. or smth like that

Today I was such in a great mood I haven't been in in such a long time! yeah i felt good. I was singing, and laughing a lot and joking around. I guess this mode is when people like you more, so you guys just stay energectic, active and friendly.. this is a secret of success ( well, only a part of it, actually).
I think if i had been is such a good mood everyday, everyboday have loooooved me! but that's not gonna happen. even today i feel sick and in some points of the day i felt really tired and quiet.
sooo...yep yep we are not robots, but we can just try to be happier by LOOKING happier :) and then u'll actually feel it! :)


Another thing I wanted to say: I'm really sorry for my spelling and for my English as a whole. I know I dont have perfect English and I'm not trying to pretend that I do. So please, take it in consideration and don't throw up! hahaha 

I HAVE TO MENTION IT!!!

OMG JUST NOW I'VE FOUND AN INFO ABOUT SMALL GIRAFFES!!!!!!!!!!
 OMFG!!!!!!!!!!! i want it!!!!!!PLEASE SOMEBODY GET IT FOR ME, I'LL LOVE U FOREVER!!!
and here u can watch what one of the small giraffes is doing ;)
http://www.petitelapgiraffe.com/

SO CUTE!!!!!!!!

Commercial :D

Well, today I've found a HILARIOUS blog!
http://lv7thinks.com/
this one. It is written by Lord Voldemort. LOL. Very funny already, but it's very informative with a log of jokes, which will be loooved by Harry Potter fans (mememememe!!haha).
So yeah, I'm just writing this post to remember this link, coz idk how to subscribe\follow it!

Art!!!

So, I was talking to my friend today and.... I started to think again about stuff.
Like, in Russian High School there are not art classes!! Only today I realized it while I was complaining how much I miss Choir class. And then it just amazed me - we have no art classes AT ALL!!! I MEAN, SERIOUSLY?!!?!?!!?WTF!?!?!!?!?!
gosh i just can't get how stupid the goverment is. Surely, they say smth like - well, u dont actually learn anything
BUT YOU ACTUALLY DO! You learn how to think outside the box, for example. You express yourself and I think it's so important otherwise - you dont have time to do art at home or somewhere and you just keep everything inside you and you can literally explode! it's a lot of pressure. anyways, i could've talked about this forever, but i gotta take shower and finally do my homework!
SEE, NO TIME FOR ART!
so so so tragic.

Wrong?

Um, ok.
 I was kinda fine the whole day long, but smth suddenly upset me really bad.. :(
so, lets think there is one important person, and he is faaaar far away, but lets pretend someone used to be friends with him and  it was more than friendship for , at least, one of them. These people give each other a promise to keep in touch.
Then, one person messages another one and he doesnt reply, then this person messages again... and no reply.
the fact that that person just did not check his messages is out of question, coz he did...
the question is, what one person did wrong?? huh?? and what this person, who wants to talk should do? coz this person has something important to tell...
I dont know. Probably, it was wrong calling him stupid but it was a joke...

okay

HOMEWORK HOMEWORK HOOOMEWORK
i gotta do iitttt!
but today u can congratulate me : im dont with my photobook! YAY
and i wanted to sing today... just open my mouth and sing out loud, what i did. but just a bit. :(
gosh i miss choir so bad...:( 

Crucible

Today I was sitting on Physics and I figured out what Im gonna write about here today. BUT i forgot ( haha of course!!). So now I dont know.
I started to read 'romeo and juliette' in English and its kinda not easy u know. all of these 'thee, thy, thine, thou...' lol! why did they use it?? Also i like this one: 'ay' or 'nay'. haha. but i remember this from 'the crucible'.

Actually, 'the crucible' is a really cool play.. I've read it in American school and I really liked it. It was written during Cold War and when everyone in the US were trying to figure out communists, so in this play there is a part where people start accussing each other in witchcraft.The author(Arthur Miller) described metaphorically what was happening in the american society back then and it didnt end up good... There is a movie based on this play - it called 'the crucible' too with Wanona Ryder. But what does 'crucible' mean? Usually, its a container where you can melt different mixed metals and then you get gold separately, for example. So thats what was happening back then: people tried to illuminate evil from them.
After we have read it and watched a movie, we did a research based on Salem Witch Trials.. It surprised me a lot. IT REALLY DID HAPPEN! lol. I mean, we can't know whether those people who were killed were witches or not. Other facts which surprised me too were that some men were considered as witches and one was killed by people throwing stones at him... Also, there were a few little girls (age 4 may be.. or 5) and they were witches too! I think it's crazy... and it's really mysterious. 

Hey :)

Hey!
well, i already have a tumblr account (mean-russian.tumblr.com), but i decided it'd be good to create a blog here too, because it's freaking hard to figure out stuff on there! yep, im so dumb. but oh well :)

anyways, today  i was  creating a photo book. It took freaking lots of time and i created just 20 pages. It's just so hard to put all ur pics together which where taken during a year filled with events :D

But it turned out that having a photo book - is pretty cool! it's REALLY easy to make it, you just have to download a special program (im making my book on netprint.ru) and here you go! There are different styles and designs, you can add your own background too :) So I just searched 'vintage texture wallpaper'.. Im doing it in retro style. Im really excited to finish up making it and finally get it so i can show around lol :)

Also, today I was searching an information about entering to a University of Cinematography(idk if i spelled it right?) and Television. I got a lot to do. I have to write a lot of stuff, like my biography, different scripts for short movies.. Then I have an interview, audition... omg. I dont know. And I didnt even mention russian state exam for literature. Anyhow, i have a back up plan : be a traslator D: so fun! mhm